His dark eyes widened at the idea of her letting go on the data tower. He didn’t interrupt but just held her tighter.
“That makes sense to me, too.” And it did relax his shoulders.
“And you’re not second choice,” he said at once. “That relationship ended. My biggest regret on that beach was that you and I would never get a chance to begin. I’ll tell you anything you want to know about her. Her name is Bix. We knew each other from childhood. Without that history, I don’t know if we would have been friends or lovers, on and off, at later times. I think maybe not. Especially the last time; she’d been seeing someone else who was killed and we escaped a massacre on our homeworld together… I kind of think a lot of it was driven by worry, wanting each other to be saved, which neither of us could really provide. We argued a lot. She left me because I was so tired, I talked about leaving the Rebellion for her and she disagreed. Maybe I agree with her but I don’t have to like how she did it. But all you really need to know is that you have nothing to prove. And where I arrived by the time I met you was completely different from where I’d ever been with her. I never… interrelied with her in fourteen years the way you and I did in five days.”
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Date: 2025-06-17 05:46 pm (UTC)“That makes sense to me, too.” And it did relax his shoulders.
“And you’re not second choice,” he said at once. “That relationship ended. My biggest regret on that beach was that you and I would never get a chance to begin. I’ll tell you anything you want to know about her. Her name is Bix. We knew each other from childhood. Without that history, I don’t know if we would have been friends or lovers, on and off, at later times. I think maybe not. Especially the last time; she’d been seeing someone else who was killed and we escaped a massacre on our homeworld together… I kind of think a lot of it was driven by worry, wanting each other to be saved, which neither of us could really provide. We argued a lot. She left me because I was so tired, I talked about leaving the Rebellion for her and she disagreed. Maybe I agree with her but I don’t have to like how she did it. But all you really need to know is that you have nothing to prove. And where I arrived by the time I met you was completely different from where I’d ever been with her. I never… interrelied with her in fourteen years the way you and I did in five days.”